You know, I never thought of doing something like this but I wanna have a discussion with you in detail about what it's really like of being a consistent artist online, whether it be a hobby or for business/services. Noting down why I love it so much and some things I do not like about it

The Pro's

It's my passion - I love drawing characters and showing them to the world because it's fun and very engaging.

Discovering different things and realising my potential - that adreniline rush on trying something different or something I do less often feels refreshing and it can spark something that could help me with the content

Meeting new people - I have made so much friends along the way up to this day, all you followers on DA, Twitter, Patreon, etc. I don't think I'd ever met all of you if I hadn't gone down this road from the beginning

Earning something out of it - I consider all this as a hobby, I don't expect myself to make a career out of this but there's no harm in making a little cash on the side. Knowing that there are people out there willing to support me financially just to see more of my content really shows how grateful I am for your compassion

It's worth living for - You guys practically gave my life such a boost in continuing on it, you all made it worth living and it is very much appreciated

The Con's

This is where I'll get a bit more serious and heavy so bare with me here

The ramifications of being envious and arrogant - For years until 2018 I've been holding up a tight bond on the reputation, it looked like it was going alright for me, but at the end of 2017 I was getting... desperate for improvements, like getting angry and going nowhere when I saw that everyone I know has either gone away from the internet or there are other fellow artists that are vastly improving their own content and I had done little, so basically I had gotten jealous to the point where it clouded my mind to understand that it's just their own style and whatever they had done matters little to what I'm doing. So nowadays I'm more focused on my own content and learned to appreciate what I'm doing is more important than others

Causing drama for stupid reasons - Yeah the whole drama with Wubcake threw me off the deep end and destroyed my image within the fandom, That whole ordeal really messed me up and it brought out the demon inside of me and it was all for nothing other than pathetic jealousy and then it ended up with me getting depressed to the point where I considered leaving DA, but that's all in the past now, we patched things up and everything's good now.  

Just heed my warning though, unless the person you accuse of has legit evidence for their actions/methods, etc, you better back off before you end up fucking it all up for yourself and more importantly the person you're targeting. Saying it from my experience - don't do it, you'll mess up everything you've gained up to that point

Dealing with arrogant commissioners - Money's money, but the person offering the money is a different story. I have encountered many commissioners that doesn't understand that you are not a miracle worker. You have limitations, you have specific tastes that the buyers wouldn't like, therefore that creates conflict and then you'd lose the chance of earning cash for your work. I've been cheated into them bastards getting free images, they get stupidely picky like for example the eyes arent in a lewd expression (Something they shouldn've mentioned when discussing the details), and others I ain't bothered to explain, but long story short, no matter who you are and what you do, you will encounter people that arent easy to work with, believe me

I myself isn't easy to work with - I am guilty to say that I myself isn't easy to work with regarding request and commissions, I have specific tastes but I will not hesitate to try some other things that aren't usually in my content, but I might add that it is somewhat difficult to get me legit interested, but it ain't impossible

Requesters mostly asks for the same thing - Patreon is especially annoying in this regard. Since I have monthly requesters and I understand their preferences more clearly. However there is a downside to this: I get bored and less motivated easily if the person in question asks for something that is harder to deal with AND that they ask a similar concept on the next month, and so on. It would became less enticing and more of a chore to do these things. We need to be more open to what we can do and stop focusing on the lowest common demonator, this regards both the ideas and the characters, I'm sick of doing the same characters and the ideas on such a frequent basis for months on end. That is mostly the reason why I am hard to work with, because I long for something different and exciting, if its just gonna include the same characters, why bother, you know? At the very least I can work with characters I don't do as often as I should, or it's new characters entirely, but not characters I do so much of (Sinfonia and a couple other OC's is the purest example of this issue)

The less effort pics gets all the attention - You all should know that everyone has preferences and all, but there will be a time when you will make a big project that you will put your best in, and no one cares, but you make a simple headshot and that gets more attention than most of your images. Believe me, that hurts me the most of all this because it leads on that even when you put your all into something, it doesn't matter. Yet the ones you didn't even try on, that's when everyone comes in, you know? It really puts a damp on your confidence for future images 

Being a NSFW artist isn't easy - with everyone censoring the shit out of the internet these days, being a NSFW artist is becoming more and more difficult to carry on without getting punished, mostly of it being unfairly justified, even happens when you follow the rules, you still get punished. And you see other people completely shattering the rules and yet they don't get punished at all. So yeah in the NSFW world, it ain't always a full on happy go lucky place 

You cannot please everyone - Over the years, I have learned that you cannot please everyone, it hurts I know but basing it from my experience, I realise that you just cannot make everyone happy, there will be people bringing you down and others that flat out hate your guts, so it is important that you don't let that drop your confidence and continue doing what you do

Life gets in the way - Need I say more? XD

Can be hard at times - I never mentioned this is ever easy, keeping this thing consistent, good work and maintaining relevance (Even when it ain't necessary) is hard, it really is. You have good days, and you have off days, we all do. It gets stressful and it gets annoying, but it's all worth it in the end right?

Now I know there are more bad points then good points, but they does not weigh it down, I will continue doing these till I drop dead

I know it got a bit heavy at times but I simply wanted you guys to know that I love you all and I will hope to continue pleasing you till the end

Got some additional ideas set up when Feb arrives

Any plans for Patreon?

I've had a lot of thinking time for it and I have added some new things to it and how we'll work things out on Pledges

1. I will be taking breaks from Patreon Requests - I'll be working on my own ideas and such, just to give your brains a breather and I gain more freedom on what I can do, that will be every 2 months starting on Feb ( For example, we're starting on Feb, then April will be a break month, then June, then August, and so on )

2. Starting on Feb - I will layout a list of all the characters we can expect from me, and I mean all of them, any random commissioners comes in and the list will simply be updated - that includes the pledgers requests so that will be the month where you'll know who's coming and to build up the hype, for DA however, this isn't gonna be revealed, so sorry but it is what it is

3.   All Request Teirs except $5 are now limited

Yes, so now, if you wanna support and contrinute to the request months, you won't get the chance once they're all filled

Currently:

$5 to see WIP's, gain Early Access and Extra alts is endless, there's no limit to that one only

$10 for a close up image has 3 slots left

$20 for a full pic (Includes Alts of your choosing) has 2 slots left

$25 for a Futa exclusive image has 1 slot left

$30 for 2 request pics has 3 slots left

$40 for 3 request pics has 1 slot left 

Are there any changes to the commissions?

Other than changing the prices - As shown below:

No, there is little difference to how commissions functions now, so don't worry about it

And that is all I have to say about the plans, so when Febuary comes, all of this will be activated - no holding back now

(Apparently putting this in the art section violated the terms and conditions here so it had been forcibly removed... so might as well make a blog about it, if that's what it'll take to inform you all about what's going on with the commissions)

So, first thing to do for 2020, let's do some changes

This being something that is involving commissions

We are going to be changing the prices, making these things cheaper and more affordable, since I had been thinking the past few months about the last prices I had set

To my regular Commissioners, if you wanna keep paying the last amont of money just to be supportive, that'd be appreciated but it is your decision

IMPORTANT DETAIL: On Patreon, I have announced that I will be taking a break from it every other month, so that being said - Febuary will be my break month, March I will do Patreon again and April will be another break, and so on

So that is when the public requests and commissions will be open - however, depending on the ideas you give out to me on the commissions, I can make an exception and may consider doing the pics alongside Patreon, if you can interest me enough XD

It's about time too because I've been waiting for this for a while now so 2020 seems like the best time to do it

If you're interested come talk to me through Discord or these other sites and maybe we can arrange something

It finally arrived, so Happy New Year - and hope 2020 works out for ya

So I've been browsing a bit of art, you know, for curiosity and such

And I've noticed that apparently there are others that put in multiple images in one upload?

Is that a thing recently? Because I've always put in one upload at a time when there are alternate images of the defaulted image

If you can help me learn how to do that, that would help me save LOADS of time when I eventually do upload more

Remember me mentioning something about making some small changes eariler this month?

Well this is what I got going on, and let me explain exactly why and how this'll work out

So, we'll be changing the shedule for the public uploads - This applies to your requests and any ideas I may have myself

This time, it will not be every Sunday, it will be every fortnight on a Sunday - In other words, every 2 weeks on a Sunday

Why extend the time you may ask?

Because be honest, have I really been keeping up with the original schedule lately, huh? No I haven't

So I came up with a plan so I can keep my schedule intact whilst work on Patreon stuff alongside, one that I think should prove quite efficiant for both of them 

During the first week, I deal with Patreon content

And the second week, I will deal with the Public content

Eh? Eh? Come on, that's a better way to go don't ya think?

The 2nd week I deal with you guys and that following Sunday you see the pics

There will be a very small change into the commissions however, whenever the commissioners are dealt with, I will do those images right away as always, but they will be shown to the commissioner only when they are doneuntil the day of uploading content comes, because I rather have them see the image first before everyone else

This plan is starting on Auguest 1st, so that is tomorrow, after tomorrow, you will not see images not this following Sunday but the Sunday after

If you wanna see what I am up to the following 2 weeks, then only $5 would give you eveything I have to offer on Patreon :)

So, do you understand all this?

Of course, it's so simple, yet it took me this long to actually figure it out...

All I had to do was create a new email account just to get in there, since all the Pixiv ID info of my previous account is completely gone from my mind, and the fact that I cannot use an existing email for the previous account since I had already deleted the account XD

Well, I can safely say that ----- I AM BACK BITCHES!!!!!!

So, it is here now, and we're are gonna start from scratch and start all over again, THIS TIME - we are not gonna fuck it up

If you want an alternative reason to view my NSFW content, then Pixiv is the place for you the link's below

www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=42…

I have SubscribeStar now as an alternative to Patreon IF something goes bad, not saying it will, it's just in case

So here's the link if you want to support me: https://www.subscribestar.com/cbear624-nsfw

https://www.reddit.com/user/CBear624

If you wanna follow me there as well, then go ahead, I'll see you all there :D

Okay, I've copied everything I have in my files, every account is back up running and all seems good in my spare laptop that mother gave me

However, there's one place that I fear for the worst

My Discord

I dunno why but I have got it all set up but it won't allow me to verify my account due to something going on in the servers

Basically it's saying that the network or the computer itself is sending automated queries, so it won't allow to access FOR NOW

That for now part is what gets me, I don't if I have to simply wait till later to do it again but I dunno if I can take that chance

So I don't know about this but I am very afraid that I'd have to make another Discord account just to deal with commissioners, Patrons and even just talking with my friends

This is just a heads up IF IT COMES TO THAT, don't take this as in my Discord is up in shambles, I don't know what's gonna happen later